John Magee “Angel Song”
This was a very intense weekend…in a positive way. Friday night I went out alone (one of my favorite things in the world to do). I enjoy going out with my friends but I find when I go out alone, I always have adventures and I go where the wind takes me. I have unfiltered conversations with strangers and I make new friends. There are so many interesting people. It’s really an honor to be a part of someone’s life even for a short while.
Saturday I went to a Bunker party and saw Jeff Mills, Dasha Rush and Mike Servito at Output. It was like dancing on another planet. Jeff Mills is like the alien wizard…I can’t even explain. It’s really beautiful to watch someone orchestrate a story and everyone dances to the same rhythm on the same wave length till all hours of the night. Dasha Rush is so beautiful and she OWNS the stage with graceful confidence and takes you into a deep journey. Powerful. Mike Servito is a magical person. He’s like a DJ empath. He knows what people need and he gives it to them. And the best part is, you don’t always know what you need, so he’ll play you what you need. Everyone leaves satisfied and fulfilled. Techno is so meditative for me. After a night of dancing I feel clear and well. I danced till 6 am and I tipped my cab driver extra for going the wrong way down a one-way street to save time. He did NOT want to do it but I was like DO IT, DO IT, YOU CAN DO IT and he did and I was like yeahhhh. We are now bros.
Sunday I went to my friend Alex’s birthday party and met a group of amazing people. I see the warmth that she gives her friends and it’s reciprocal. She’s a gem. The group discussed philosophy, spirituality, space, dreams, sex, dance, family, and how to properly hold an umbrella which we concluded that there isn’t a proper way to hold an umbrella…just hold it and stay dry. It seems silly but next time, watch how everyone holds their umbrellas.
Later, I went dancing again with my little baby nugget buddy, Vivienne, at Bossa Nova Civic Club. I just adore her so much because she loves music as much as I do and dances and feels it and is also crazy about basketball and space. She’s a giver. I like Bossa because it’s an intimate venue and everyone is there to dance and let loose, the vibe is good, the bartenders are the best and magic happens there. MAGIC HAPPENS. I would like to tell you everything that happened but I can’t put it in print.
Brittni, if you’re reading this, I miss you and have fun backpacking in Guatemala, little shmeeble!
I posted this track because I recently heard it on DJ Scallywag’s All Hallows Mix here and it really made me think about what I want for 2015. What do I want? What are my goals? What do I want to achieve? Where do I see myself by the end of the year? Be specific. Dive into the details. Speak it out into the Universe. Because what I put out is what I’m going to get.
I am guilty of having hundreds of ideas and never acting on them. I wasn’t pushing my dreams and visions into reality. Maybe I hold myself back because of the fear of failure but it’s okay to fail. Failing is just another part of life just as success and breathing are a part of life. In a strange way, failing can be exhilarating. It’s a rush. It gives me anxiety and then I’m like ((( SHIT ))). But then it’s over and it’s time to move on a bit wiser than before. As Bruce Lee said, “Flow in the living moment. We are always in a process of becoming and nothing is fixed. Don’t fear failure. Not failure, but low aim, is the crime. In great attempts it is glorious even to fail.”
Other times, I don’t push forward due to mere laziness or complacency or because I fill my time with less important things. I’ll think about something for so long that all I do is think about it and I never take action. It’s time to put these dreams into motion, to cultivate and let them sprout into fruition. Life is buzzing by and I am very much alive and capable. All of us are.
I’ve set goals for myself for the year and I’ve also set daily/weekly attainable goals. At first, I was overwhelmed with how it appeared in my mind, like HOW am I going to do this? With the my work schedule, side hustles/projects, my site, making time to work out, time for friends/family, that adding more goals was overwhelming. But as Bruce Lee said, “It’s not the daily increase but daily decrease. Hack away at the unessential… Make at least one definite move daily toward your goal.”
“If you love life, don’t waste time, for time is what life is made up of.”
“All fixed set patterns are incapable of adaptability or pliability. The truth is outside of all fixed patterns.”
“Two people take a vow to be together and live and love each other forever. They promise to love a lifetime. Funny thing. Then they change their minds. They both go their separate ways and love is just a memory. But a young heart doesn’t stay sad long. Another love soon comes along. That’s the way love is.”